Dear Tashmere,
I'm 30 now... An official adult. No crying or break downs, at least not because of turning 30. It feels good to be older and have passed some of those early growing pains although I will miss some of those days of wreck less decision making. LOL These days I just can't justify those risks, but it's ok.
I was in love for a while, Dre, the first one I truly loved. I learned that I can't get anything out of someone that they don't have. I learned that loving someone with all my heart has absolutely no say so in them loving me back. I learned to take myself in consideration and to not allow myself to be swept up into my own feelings and to pay attention more. I learned that I can survive a heartbreak even though some days I thought I could not make it one more second. I learned that I should be able to look myself in the face and stand behind the decisions I make and to not let anything take me too far from who I am. This was a tough one... I'm still working and earning to get past this experience.
This year makes my 5th anniversary with the company I work for...(apparently they are always watching) They are the best company I've ever worked for, which I haven't worked for many, because of their laser focus on the goals of the company. I thought about management and I think it's time for me to make that decision to move up or on. I've learned about work ethic, how to adapt to change, how to take initiative, and hold myself accountable..... The relationships I've made here are priceless and some I know I'll be able to have forever. Starting at Northlake then to Lenox and finally Galleria... All my store managers Fred, Brian, Dixon, Sharonda, Tracy, Octavia, and David...... I learned that change is good... You just can't get too comfortable.
I've learned that people come and go and that is ok. I found out that if I don't learn to sacrifice that every thing I've dreamed of will be sacrificed by default. I've picked up some bad habits along the way and I don't want them to get out of hand. I'm working on cultivating good habits.
I love you, I have to go, but I will write again.
MUAH
-Tashmere
You made me feel better Mere. Thanks.
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